Little Bit of Hope

Sat, 27 Aug 2005 03:13:49 GMT

My loves, I have returned to you all! Stoner here, and I saw, no seriously I did, my first MTI, SSgt. Aguilar! AT my work today. I live in Windsor Ca... how the f**k did he get there? I didn't think to ask him. I got out a year ago today. Scary thought really. I do miss it still. It was funny/sad. He looked at me and said "Stone? Is that you?" (he remembered me!!!! EEKKK! Is that good or bad?)He said he was sad to know I had washed out, he also said that he understood my reasons, and that he wished I could come back because his last flight sucked, and I could have helped. I love him I really do. And out of everything, (except 319 of course ;) he is what I miss most about BMT.

So yeah... anyways, come find me I miss my sisters and brothers!!!

Sat, 27 Aug 2005 03:06:12 GMT

I moved in with Justin! A two bedroom apartment, I love it. We moved about three weeks ago, and live has been hectic. I'm taking up where Cliff left off and its my turn to try a book. It should be fun, please sent ideas!! I've lost a lot of phone numbers because my phone what stolen a couple months ago. Also I've been having computer problems everytime I turn the damned thing on... (I'm on Justin's right now) so I'm sorry if I ignored anybody, it wasn't on purpose!! My cell is 217-5057, so please, CALL ME, I love you all!!!!!

Hee Hee

Sat, 23 Apr 2005 07:27:35 GMT

If You Ruled the World: by oomarilynmonroe
Username
national religion
Type of Government
How you take over
You would name it
You would overthrow	averageshorty
Your second in command would be	mind_warper
Your sex slave is	darksizzle
Commander of the military:	deusextu
Put to death for insubordination	fifjason
Figure head in the puppet government	neo4203
You are overthrown by	skyoffire

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Thu, 17 Mar 2005 08:02:28 GMT

DMV Employees
Circle I Limbo

The Pope
Circle II Whirling in a Dark & Stormy Wind

General asshats
Circle III Mud, Rain, Cold, Hail & Snow

Parents who bring squalling brats to R-rated movies
Circle IV Rolling Weights

Oakland Raider Fans
Circle V Stuck in Mud, Mangled

River Styx

Osama bin Laden
Circle VI Buried for Eternity

River Phlegyas

Saddam Hussein
Circle VII Burning Sands

George Bush
Circle IIX Immersed in Excrement

Gray Davis
Circle IX Frozen in Ice

Design your own hell

Thu, 17 Mar 2005 02:01:08 GMT

Well, I'm back from Justin's. The past ten days have been a dream. However now I'm back home. And I miss him terribly. I mean, yes I know I still get to see him everyday, and talk to him and be with him, but its not the same as falling asleep in his arms everynight and waking up to his face every morning. Someday I'll move back in with him, and I can hardly wait for that day to come.

I've started work on a new story, a take off of an old fairy tail. So far it shows promise. Cliff told me that Random House is publishing a book of his, its supposed to come out sometime next year, I can't wait to see it!

My family went to the beach and to Armstrong Redwoods for my dad's birthday last weekend. Myles, Ben, Kim and Justin came too. Ben is Sami's boyfriend, Myles is her friend from out of state and Kim is Jeffy's new girlfriend. They've been together for a little over a month. It was so much fun, we played at Goat Rock for a couple hours, got lunch and took it to the Redwoods to eat. It was a beauiful day and a ton of fun. I hope we do something like it again soon.

The apple trees in front of my house are blooming. Spring is arriving with graceful fanfare as usual. Such beautiful weather, I just want to spend all my time at the beach or something. Maybe just in the car with the windows down and the raido up. Days like this should not be wasted.

Fri, 04 Mar 2005 19:04:16 GMT

It's a charmed life
Innocence wild
Crayola skies for a thousand miles
It's a good life in the happily ever after
Last page of a very last chapter
It's the story of a charmed life
It's a charmed life
Unexplainable grace
Stumbling, you fall right into place
It's a childlike world and you can feel the magic
Far from the typically tragic
That's the beauty of a charmed life
Who needs to know
When it all comes and when it all goes
Who needs to know just when
Faith will take you there
It's a charmed life
Innocence wild
Crayola skies for a thousand miles
It's a good life in the happily ever after
Last page of a very last chapter
It's the story of a charmed life
Na na na...
Na na na...
Who needs to know
When it all comes and when it all goes
Who needs to know just when
I know you'll be there (I know you'll be there)
It's a charmed life
Innoncence wild
Crayola Skies for a thousand miles
It's a good life in the happily ever after
Last page of a very last chapter
It's the story of a charmed life
Na na na...
(It's the story of a charmed life)
Na na na...
(It's the beauty of a charmed life)
Na na na...
(It's the story of a charmed life)
Na na na...
(It's the beauty of a charmed life)
Na na na...
Na na na...

Thu, 03 Mar 2005 03:00:12 GMT

Have you ever noticed that when live takes a serious dive suddenly something will happen that makes life livable again? The past couple months my life has gone from one extreame to the other and back again, and back yet again, and then again. I'm sooo glad that my life is so quiet and boring... *eye roll* well anyways... Have you ever noticed that in movies and stories true love always happens in rather extraordinary circumstances, whereas in real life love appears when you least expect it, in the most ordinary of ways? Like a phone call or a chance meeting, just a boring, ordinary thing that changes your life so completely that its hard to believe you are the same person. And marriage... now there is a huge question, four little words, followed by two tiny words and a ring... Then come however many years of washing dishes and changing diapers... and somehow that doesn't seem like such a bad thing anymore. I spend my days dreaming about a baby, about a husband... Well now, and for the first time I have a husband in my future that I have no doubts about. As I've said many times before, all I've ever wanted was a baby, and now I want someone to love as well. Instead of swearing off guys completely I want to swear myself to just one. He has his flaws, his quirks, but he isn't controling, abusive, indecisive, stupid or mean. He is kind, gentle, funny, sweet... all of the things we want and can never find, right girls? I know I'm lucky, and he is too. And I think we'll be happy together. Its been six weeks last monday, which makes him my second longest relationship... sad, but true... Sami has a friend, Myles, come for a visit in a couple days. He'll be in my room, so I'll be living with Justin for 10 days!!! I'm so excited, not to mention this is an important step for us. Now we find out if we can live together or if we're going to drive each other crazy... wish us luck, I move in day after tomorrow...
Blessed Be

Coolio

Wed, 23 Feb 2005 07:46:08 GMT

LJ Friends Meme by coolerq

• You must tell #2 people about this game.
• Justin is the one that you love.
• Josh is one you like but can't work out.
• You care most about Niki.
• Matt is the one who knows you very well.
• Jerine is your lucky star.
• Beautiful Soul is the song that matches with Justin.
• Boys of Summer is the song for Josh.
• Beautiful Stranger is the song that tells you most about YOUR mind.
• and I Believe in a Thing Called Love is the song telling you how you feel about life
Take this quiz

I'm curious...

Sun, 20 Feb 2005 02:41:47 GMT

If you woke up and I was in bed with you, what would be your first thought?
(Now post this in your LJ and find out what mine would be)

My Life or Something Like It...

Sat, 19 Feb 2005 05:41:12 GMT

My life, what a fucked up piece of work. In my short (and pitiful) life I have barely graduated from high school, washed out of the military, never managed to keep a job more than a month, been caught using drugs. But I've also fallen in love. And this time, I honestly believe its for keeps. Even my moms like him, thats saying something. I'd do anything to be with him. I love his family, adore everything about them, and they love me too. All I want is to marry him, and settle down. Mama Jeanne said she thought he'd make a wonderful son-in-law, so we'll see what happens.
Blessed Be

I can fly!!

Sun, 13 Feb 2005 20:53:21 GMT

The past week has been totally and completely tramatic. Parts were awesome, and parts were too horrible to contemplate. But hey thats life right? Justin have dinner with my family earlyer this week, and I'm having dinner with his family tonight. Tomorrow is our one month, and we're still going strong. I love him more than I ever believed possible, we fit together perfectly. Its funny, we never fight, ever. The only things we've even disagreed on are A: he hates mineral water and I love it, and B: he hates ranch Doritos and I love them. Wow, killers there huh. I think its great! We're talking about getting a cat!! Its so awesome, we were chating about all of my animals and suddenly he says "We should get a cat." We! WE! There is a WE, and an US, and an OURS... whoa... its a lot to think about, but hey, I'm happy and everyone we've talked to agrees that they can see this going long term. I hope so, I never have to worry about him, or wonder what hes thinking, we tell each other everything. Being in love with your best friend is a wonderful thing. Being in love and knowing that its safe, and a good thing is a profound experiance. I'm so grateful for this change to finally be happy, and I'm making the most of it. Thank you Holy Goddess.
Blessed Be

Justin

Sun, 06 Feb 2005 21:09:37 GMT

I've spent the last two nights over at Justin's apartment. Two nights in a row, thats a first. We've had a lot of firsts, each of them special and wonderful. Its scary how much my life has changed, but you know what? I'm glad! I've never been happier, for the first time in my life I'm not worried about messing up, or making people angry, or even just not knowing what to do. I'm smiling, I'm working out, I'm bouncing off the walls. I love this. He is a perfect match for me, we compliment each other. I want this to last, for the long term. I mean most of my relationships... ok all of them really have been short, explosive and very painful for everyone involved. Valentine's Day will be one month togother. Pray for us.

Its been a while, sorry I've been distracted in the worst way.

Wed, 02 Feb 2005 21:07:01 GMT

So yeh, my life has changed drasically, yet again. Its all for the best, however to get where I am I had to do a couple truely stupid things. Like first off. a couple days before New Years I took a bunch of pills, chased with vodka and tried to end my life. Clearly it didn't work, and I'm fine now. However it was a much needed wake up call, and a bracing reality check. After that I woke up and realized that love isn't want I felt for James. I adored him, would do anything for him, but in the long run it would never have worked. We were just too different. He made plans for "us" that didn't have anything to do with what I wanted to do with my life. It became about him. I couldn't deal with that. What was stupid about that was I let it go on so long and I got so involoved before I let him go. I wish him luck, and I pray for him every night. About 12 hours after I broke up with James, Justin called. Some of you might remember him, he was my date to Prom. Well anyways, he asked me out, said he had been thinking about me and so on. I said yes, I figured if it doesn't work then fine, I'll have still gotten to see him for the first time in two years. But it did work out. We've been together for two weeks last monday and we're happy. We want the same things, we're comfortable together, he loves me for me, not for what he can get me to do like James did. I honestly believe I love him too. Yes I know, its soon, technically hes a rebound, but everyone likes him, Don, Nikki, Jerine, my moms... even Sami approves. No one has ever approved of one of my boyfriends before. Mom didn't even approve of Jason, even tho she's known him for years, and likes him a lot as a person. Goddess Bless us all, and keep us safe from bad choices and painful regrets.

Sun, 16 Jan 2005 07:33:10 GMT

She keeps her Moet et Chandon
In her pretty cabinet
'Let them eat cake' she says
Just like Marie Antoinette
A built-in remedy
For Kruschev and Kennedy
At anytime an invitation
You can't decline

Caviar and cigarettes
Well versed in etiquette
Extraordinarily nice

She's a Killer Queen
Gunpowder, gelatine
Dynamite with a laserbeam
Guaranteed to blow your mind
Anytime
Ooh, recommended at the price
Insatiable an appetite
Wanna try ?

To avoid complications
She never kept the same address
In conversation
She spoke just like a baroness
Met a man from China
Went down to Geisha Minah
(killer, killer, she's a Killer Queen)
Then again incidentally
If you're that way inclined

Perfume came naturally from Paris (naturally)
For cars she couldn't care less
Fastidious and precise

She's a Killer Queen
Gunpowder, gelatine
Dynamite with a laser beam
Guaranteed to blow your mind
Anytime

Drop of a hat she's as willing as
Playful as a pussy cat
Then momentarily out of action
Temporarily out of gas
To absolutely drive you wild, wild..
She's all out to get you

She's a Killer Queen
Gunpowder, gelatine
Dynamite with a laser beam
Guaranteed to blow your mind
Anytime

Ooh, recommended at the price
Insatiable an appetite
Wanna try ?
You wanna try...

Thu, 13 Jan 2005 07:50:26 GMT

I started school this week. So far I adore my professors and my classes are interesting, lets hope they stay that way. Devon has appeared in my History class, he was in my Dance class last semester. Hes such a sweet guy, I'm glad to see him again. Benji, you were right, good for you!

I've been so tired these past couple of days, but then aren't we all? I've been under tons of stress latly, trying to figure out what I want to do with my life and so on, frankly I have made a choice. I want to be a hermit on a desert island. Oh yeah, just me and lots of sand. Think about it. Desert islands don't have much in the way of food, so I'll lose the weight thats been bothering me, I'll finally get a tan, and I'll swim a lot so I'll be in shape too. Best of all, no people! Score! It isn't that I don't love all of you, I do love you, really, I just can't help but feel that I need to gain perspective on my various situations, and personally I think it would be a lot easier to do that on a desert island with no distractions!!!!!

Sat, 08 Jan 2005 08:55:32 GMT

I watched Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless Mind tonight. I'll admit it, the only reason I wanted to see it at first was because it had Sunshine in the name. Papa named me Sunshine when I was a little girl, he and Sean are the only ones allowed to call me that. My darling Sean, I miss him terribly, but that is another story for another day. Eternal Sunshine is about a couple, who have each other erased from their minds when it doesn't work out... but then they meet and fall in love all over again. Which brings me to the question, can true love ever truely be forgotten? Or erased? Or is it true that you always remember your first love? I wouldn't know as of yet, I haven't tryed to forget or grow past my love. And maybe I never will, I hope so. Why would anyone ever want to forget love, even if it ends badly, you still have those memories of the good times, of his smile, or her funky sense of humor... So my question for tonight: are you in love? Would you ever forget it? Why?

Rain

Wed, 05 Jan 2005 21:18:11 GMT

Its raining right now. Outside the world smells cold, clean and wet. i sense the wood smoke, a quiet side note in the winter air. Its a beautiful day, the sky is stormy gray, and the world is reborn. Everyone is beautiful and perfect in the rain. There is no such thing as "We have to talk" or "This isn't working out" There are no pills, no fear, no sadness or pain. The world is an incredible place in the rain. A rainbow momentarily archs across the sky, flowing my peaceful gray world with color and light. The sad eyes of my fellows turn up to the sky and smile briefly at the multicolored smile of God above them. Joy dances through each rain drop, happiness spashes from every puddle, and I am content with my momentarily perfect world.

What a day

Tue, 04 Jan 2005 06:55:04 GMT

Jeez, and I say again, what a day. I had lunch with Jerine and her mom, which was awesome because I haven't seen either of them in quite a while. After that I went job hunting, which went pretty well and I got some good leads. I wrote a letter to Dan which basically said: I love you and you'll make it, which is prolly what he needs to hear right now. Then James and I had a long fight/talk, and a lot was said, I think we're good now. Thank the Goddess, I don't want to fight him. Then I went to Nikki's house, and that did NOT go well at all. Quite frankly I'm even more furious at her now than I was before I went over. Its so frusterating, shes my best friend, but let a guy enter my side of the picture its always the same story. Jealousy, angry, bitchyness. Oh but if she has a guy, I have to be nice to them, because they are always right for her, but no one is EVER right for ME! Oh no of COURSE not!!! True, normally I want to be nice to them, because they are generally nice guys, but damnit. I'm sure I'm over reacting here, because I always am, but why is it that everyone can find a guy that they're friends approve of except me? Not that I care at the moment. I'm truely happy, with a man I love and no one can change my mind on that. But for the love of all thats holy and good in our world why can't I do anything right, for once? Please? Just once?

Mon, 03 Jan 2005 06:40:18 GMT

Its a new year. Thank the holy goddess. These past couple days have been full of fear, pain, and lonelyness. But starting today, I'm feeling better. I hope you are all feeling better too.
Blessed Be

Please give me your opinion

Thu, 30 Dec 2004 04:50:34 GMT

Once upon a time there was a girl who had many faults who fell in love with a boy who also had many faults. She went on a trip to find the boy and tell him in person exactly how she felt. However the friend who came with her decided it was time to leave. So the girl went home with her friend, instead of sending the friend home alone on a 17 hour drive. This meant that she had to leave the boy behind. The boy was very angry and called the girl self-centered, because she put the responsibilities for her friend over the need to stay with the boy...
Who is at fault?

Borrowed from Carol

Thu, 30 Dec 2004 02:06:58 GMT

1. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before?
Joined the AirForce, washed out, felling love and found my purpose in life... its been a busy year.

2. Did you keep your new year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I broke all of them by the second week of January. Yes, to lose that last ten pounds, to buy a new car, and to move out.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Thankfully no, not yet.

4. Did anyone close to you die?
Again, thankfully no.

5. What countries did you visit?
Texas counts as another country!! So yes!

6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004?
A new car!

7. What date from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
Monday December 27, 2004, Thats my secret.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Not killing any of the stupid people around me, and by learning more about myself than I would have believed possible.

9. What was your biggest failure?
Washing out of the Air Force

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
I hurt my knees, while in the Air Force

11. What was the best thing you bought?
A coffee table for my room

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
Umm, everyone had their moments

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
Again, we have all had our moments.

14. Where did most of your money go?
Towards a road trip tp Washington

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Washington

16. What song will always remind you of 2004?
I Hope You Dance by Lee Ann Womack

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:

i. happier or sadder? Sadder
ii. thinner or fatter? maybe a couple pounds lighter
iii. richer or poorer? poorer

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Kept in better touch with people from high school

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Being my usual overly dramatic self

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
With my family

22. Did you fall in love in 2004?
Yes, I did.

23. How many one-night stands?
Two

24. What was your favourite TV program?
Star Trek DS9, Zena the Warrior Princess

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
I can't hate people

26. What was the best book you read?
Stranger in a Strange Land by Robert Heinlein

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Keith Urban and the Postal Service

28. What did you want and get?
A second chance

29. What did you want and not get?
Everything I wanted that I didn't get I wasn't ready for

30. What was your favourite film of this year?
Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless Mind

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I didn't really do anything, but hey, now I'm 19 yay me.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Staying longer

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004?
jeans and tee-shirts, truely stylish right

34. What kept you sane?
James and Nikki

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Johnny Deep, Orlando Bloom

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
Election, what complete bullshit

37. Who did you miss?
James

38. Best new person you met?
James

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004.
You are the reason for everything that happens to you

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.

Like tomorrow was a gift and you got eternity to think about
what'd you do with it what did you do with it
what did I do with it
what would I do with it'

Sky diving
I went Rocky Mountain climbing
I went 2.7 seconds on a bull named FuManchu
and then I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter
and I watched an eagle as it was flying
and he said someday I hope you get the chance
to live like you were dying.
Tim McGraw: Live Like You Were Dying

Happily Ever After? If Only...

Thu, 30 Dec 2004 01:28:19 GMT

Ok, I did it. I went to Washington, I found him, and he was... perfect. Or at least he was as close as it is possible to come to perfection. I will never forget a moment of my time there. The only regret that I have is that I couldn't stay forever. I have never felt so safe, so protected, so... loved by anyone. I hope everyone in the world has this chance as least once in their lives to be held and kissed by the one they love more than live itself.

Another one

Fri, 24 Dec 2004 02:40:07 GMT

PASSIONATE LOVER. You love to love, always looking
for a relationship. You cannot live without it.
Your lover must be passionate and you want
that you and your partner melt into each other.
He/She should not try to take the domination .
You dont want a relationship without passion,
and the sexuality plays a big part. The first
moment you meet him/her is one of the most
important. There has to be something between
you , you cannot explain. From the first moment
on everything must fix. But when this passion
disappears you disappear to. For you it is
better to leave than to see your love
restrained.

PLEASE VOTE, I want to know what you think about my
quiz, I worked hard on it.You can always
message me or tell me how I can improve that
quiz. Ill sure write back.

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Hee Hee

Wed, 22 Dec 2004 19:26:09 GMT

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Wed, 22 Dec 2004 18:58:40 GMT

You are an Earth Sex Goddess!

You are wise and practical.

Sure, sex is fine, but you don't need it in life.

Guys like you because you're laid back and friendly.

Sometimes you enjoy casual sex, but every once in a while you hold on to a sepcial one.

You are reasonable but easy-going, and guys love that they can hang out with you and have awesome sex with you!

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